SOLITUDE

I realized, wherever I went, no matter how far it was, all I found was myself

I’m the one who keeps running around in my head and getting farther away. Until i can’t find a way out

Loneliness, emptiness, they are always present on my days

The silence in every night now turns into a comfort zone

I, who in the end forgot how to get into a deep sleep and wake up as a fresh person

Humans are indeed created with solitude

So many people come and go

I always accept their arrival and make my life feel more crowded

Happy? of course. They are very entertaining and fill the void of this space

But strangely, the more crowded people around me, the more I feel so lonely

I know, they are people who have meritorious for me

People who are always there for me, love me, take care of me

People who are loyal to me

People who prefer to understand me, even though they don’t accept it in their hearts

My parents, family, and friends

They were all there, but no one could hear the whisper of my heart

I am filled with many expectations and hopes that I cannot achieve at this time

God, I know this is not a form of gratitude. Forgive me

But I don’t mean to complain and not accept with all this life

I just feel so lonely

In this crowd of life

There are people who even use me as a motivational reason for their lives to keep on struggling

I don’t understand how it happened

However, what was there only I could not make me as a motivation for myself

I don’t know, it’s just so hard for me to do

I am tired of my own thoughts

Because it is wandering too far in thoughts that I don’t know of the way out

But, so far I can still survive

Who can make me survive? That person is my self

Because I know, there is no other solution but to be able to accept and keep going with this solitude

Alone ~

paf